Whilst in hospital I overcame a couple of fears, 1. Hospitals and 2. Injections/Cannula’s. I had a lot of thinking time in there and after being told I would be better for the Miss England Finals I began to prepare mentally for the competition and had everything planned out. That was until I received an email on the evening of Sunday 25th May from someone from the Black Country who got in contact with me wanting to help raise money for ‘Beauty With A Purpose’ and help promote Miss Black Country in the Miss England Finals. The email broke the news to me that my fundraising events that were planned (22 mile hike over Malvern Hills and a Fun Day in Willenhall) would no longer be going ahead as I was in hospital and unable to co-operate even though I had sent out half a dozen emails and text messages throughout the week organising the events and making sure things were on track. The email went on belittling me and making me feel like I had been a bad representative for the Black Country all because I had been admitted into hospital after becoming really poorly. It went as far as to putting the blame on me for his events not attracting the public. Not naming and shaming this made me feel even worse than I was already feeling upsetting not only myself but my family too.
I was discharged from hospital on Tuesday 27th May with HZO (Herpes Zoster Ophthalmicus) a viral infection crossed with shingles on a 2 weeks course of oral antibiotics, antiviral and eye drops. I checked Stephen’s Facebook page seeing that there was a memorial vigil at Lichfield Cathedral on 29th-30th May which I attended to pay my respects on behalf of the Black Country. The cathedral swam with yellow ribbons, flowers and visitors from all around wearing yellow. I paid my repsects, lit a candle and laid flowers for Stephen whilst some of his favourite and relevant songs were played, one being “I’ve had the time of my life”. The past 2 weeks have been mad however I am finally home and focusing on doing some good.